I know it is only Wednesday, but so far, this week has been crazy. It's not that my blog has ever been a "secret," it just hasn't really been easily accessible to the people that I actually know. And, it feels really weird to say, that this is no longer true. On Monday, I added my blog to my resume and LinkedIn profile. For some reason, that wasn't terrifying enough, so then I thought hey, maybe people didn't see that small update, maybe I should share this post on LinkedIn too. I blame Helene for all of the encouragement.
However, yesterday is when things really got interesting. I have been waiting to share the news of Aaron's new job for a while now, and I guess the excitement got the better of me. Once Aaron made the announcement that he had given his notice, I thought it was a great plan to share the post I had written about our plans. I shared it on Facebook. My personal Facebook.
It took about 20 minutes before I reflected on all the awkward and embarrassing things that I have posted over the years, and regret set in. Mike made a great point though, who's going to stalk my blog back to 2013 and then admit it? Lord willing, nobody. Does that make all of my worry go away? Hell no. That's why I decided to just let it out in this week's Humpday Confessions.
I confess that I may have jumped the gun on sharing my blog.
We don't start traveling for two weeks, and I doubt our family/friends care about the "Mascara Favorites" post I have planned...
I confess that I am terrified people are picking my blog apart and judging the shit out of me.
I confess that I've only deleted one post since I started this blog in June 2012.
I confess that I can't decide between wanting people to read, and wanting people not to read.
I confess that despite being extremely excited to start traveling, I am really sad about leaving my friends and family.
I confess that I am scared that I am going to miss out on important things.
I confess that drinking together over Facetime to celebrate my birthday, doesn't sound the same as a real party.
I confess that I'm ignoring my actual responsibilities to spend as much time with people before I go as I possibly can.
I confess that my life really is a fucking dream and sometimes I get too overwhelmed to realize it.
I confess that I can't wait to see the world and chase the warmer weather!